Sunday, May 8, 2011

The Goodness and Mercy of Motherhood

Forgive me for my unplanned bloggy sabbatical. All is well here. We've just been busy with life and my 40+ pregnant body has just enough energy to accomplish the basics . . . if even that. At the end of each day I have plans to write about what's going on in our lives, yet can't seem to keep my eyes open. But I have missed you all TREMENDOUSLY!

I have months of catching up to do--posting of birthday photos, Easter celebrations, poetry and ballet recitals, and everyday happenings in our crazy family. God has been so good to us these past few months. Not only is He weaving this new life inside me, He's weaving a beautiful story in our family. Perhaps the day I am the most grateful for His goodness and mercy in my life is Mother's Day.

I'll never forget 15 years ago sitting in church as they recognized the mothers in attendance. It had been a tough year. I had had three miscarriages, one after the other. A never-ending roller coaster of hope followed by grief.

The pastor asked all the mothers to stand and a round of applause followed. I remained seated--fighting back tears. Although I felt alone in my pain, I knew there were others who had a mother's heart but no children. Others who had lost children, those who were battling infertility, those who were still waiting to find a spouse so they could start a family.

I prayed for goodness and mercy to follow, in my life and in the lives of those who remained seated but ached to be standing. God answered my prayer and the following Mother's Day I held Olivia, just a few weeks old, in my arms.

Now 15 years later, I celebrate and marvel and laugh at how God has blessed us with biological and adopted children. I'm so grateful to have the gifts of my two daughters, my two sons, and this baby girl who will be born in a few weeks. I rejoice in knowing God isn't finished with us yet. And I pray for those who are still waiting for God's goodness and mercy.

This morning I sat in church, surrounded by my precious assortment of children in small, medium, and large with a fifth one doing a tap dance on my bladder during the praise and worship music. And I was grateful.

I was grateful for the children I have the privilege to parent on earth and grateful for the four blessings that I will some day meet in heaven. Grateful for the ridiculous number of handmade cards I received today and for the love that made them.

(This is my favorite because they worked on it together.)

I'm grateful for my amazing mother. Although she died 7 years ago, she still inspires and encourages me. I'm grateful for my grandmothers whose legacy of faith has been passed down from generation to generation. And I'm grateful for all the precious mothers in my life now--mothers by marriage and mothers through friendship. What a blessing you all are to me.

I hope you also had a very special Mother's Day. May you see His goodness and mercy in your life--today and every day.

Much Love,


Renee said...

aaannddd she's back! Wonderful to read your words again. More than that, wonderful to hear that all is well with you and your family. We were worried, I was worried. It's good to have you in my mind again, dear friend. So glad you had a great Mother's Day. When is that baby gonna make her debut? Soon I hope and I know you hope too. :)

Love wins,
Renee Tam

Sean and Lisa said...

Kathie I just love your posts! I always leave feeling blessed and encouraged.

So happy life is going well and can't wait to hear your new little one has entered the world.

Much love!

Kat said...

I've missed reading your posts, but am so joyful to hear your little one will be in your arms soon (and can't wait to see Hugs my bloggy friend!

Christine said...

Happy Mother's Day Kathy!

Kristin Ferguson said...

Wow...just a few weeks! I had been thinking about you lately and wondering your due date. I can't wait to see the newest addition to your fabulous family! Keep resting...don't worry about blogging...we know you're still there and I'm keeping you in my prayers!!!

sierrasmom said...

Oh......How I have missed you and your wonderful posts. Happy Mother's Day!!!!

trustandobey said...

Just so you know, I wrote this long comment to you and the computer ate it. I was starting school so I didn't have time to try again. But I am and have been thinking of you (two) and am praying for a wonderful announcement soon!